Former Miss USA Cheslie Kryst’s tragic final text to her mother before jumping to her death Revealed
Revealed
Former Miss USA Cheslie Kryst left a heart-breaking suicide text for her mother, April Simpkins before jumping to her death from her 29th-story Midtown Manhattan high-rise apartment in January.
April Simpkins, 53, revealed her daughter’s tragic last words on an emotional Wednesday episode of the Facebook series “Red Table Talk”, hosted by Jada Pinkett Smith, her daughter, Willow Smith, and mother, Adrienne Banfield-Norris.
Simpkins said Kryst sent the texts when she knew Simpkins would be in an exercise class so she wouldn’t be able to intervene. She said she had read the message an hour after it was sent, and was overcome with grief while scrolling through it, sensing that her daughter was already gone.
Cheslie Kryst’s tragic final text to her mother reads;
“First, I’m sorry, by the time you get this, I won’t be alive anymore. And it makes me even more sad to write this because I know it will hurt you the most.
I love you mom, and you are my best friend and the person I’ve lived for for years. I wish I could stay with you, but I cannot bear the crushing weight of persistent sadness, hopelessness, and loneliness any longer.
I’ve never told you these feelings, because I never wanted you to worry, and because I hoped they would eventually change, but I know they never will. They follow me through every accomplishment, success, family gathering, friendly dinner.
I cry almost every day now, like I’m in mourning. I wished for death for years. And I know you would want to know and want to help, but I haven’t wanted to share this weight with anyone.
Regardless of that, thank you sincerely for being there for me in some of my loneliness moments without me even telling you I needed you.
You have kept me alive and ready to face another day, because you answer every phone call and you are there for me at the drop of a hat. You listen to me and care when I tell you what goes on in my life and you’ve always made me feel like you loved me.
I love you more than any person I’ve ever known. You’ve done nothing wrong, you’ve done everything right.”
Simpkins said her daughter also included her final wishes and some personal information in the suicide note, which she declined to reveal during the poignant and tearful interview.
The mother said her daughter had struggled with depression since her early 20s and had tried to kill herself once before. She also said she started to realize her daughter’s ‘smiles were a little forced’ and she encouraged Kryst to call when she needed help.
Kryst had openly discussed her struggles with mental health and her strategies to improve her wellness in various interviews before her death.
